Dreams to live for

Bespectacled, with a hint of worry
My face appears sullen and droopy
My charm, that always used to be bubbly,
Has lost its former self, no more chirpy

Reliving the mundane on a loop
Burdening the duties that coop
Up my wishful thoughts that snoop
In a hidden alley of my cortex, they stoop

Some days I’m up on a mountain far away
A nomad, relishing what nature offers that day
On other days, I’m amidst skyscrapers that sway
A workaholic, hustling for luxury until I turn gray

Unraveling these random thoughts of wanderlust
Appears the reality, tainted with the unjust
A mother is who I am, for my babies, I must
Pause my dreams, withhold and adjust
So that their lives are touched by nothing but stardust…

An eternity has gone by
I still haven’t tried the world’s best pie
Nostalgia of my wishes keeps kicking in
As the time of my life keeps ticking, running thin…

If only…

When I was younger, about twenty

I used to think innocently

Oh, let me just get that job!

Then I would never sob!

After getting my heart broken by plenty

I used to think innocently

Oh, let me just get married!

Then I would never be single and harried!

I now have a job, I make good money

I am now married, a mother of a baby

I still sob well, I am quite harried..

Truth is, I am lost, almost buried

Beneath the burden of responsibility

I have forgotten my true identity

All I wished for was love and joy

But all I’ve amassed is bitter foy

As the present seems bleak in pain

My heart still pounds in vain

Hoping for a brighter day ahead

I wake up each day and make some bread

I wear a smile all day, all gay

Hoping that good comes my way

And I bid farewell forever

To those memories that run a dagger

Through my heart and soul, and scatter

All the good in me away

To nothingness, vacuum and dismay.